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Dear diary,
This is such a long and bullshit week....First off prelims!! Basically i screwed everything and next up im gonna kill myself....dun wanna talk about prelims ...
HMmm...then had high fever since wednesday... so was lying at home .... trying to stay awake to study but haha ... mission impossible...T.T anyway one thing to note is that panadol really WORKs miricles.... take 2 tablet and ur fever will be down for 4 hours...really...it WORKS!!! still having fever now....the effect is wearing off so guess will need to take it really soon :) <3 u panadol...
Yesterday went for the mid autumn thing at church.... am super duper tired tired tired tired.... haha seriously feel like dropping dead at the corner to sleep ..zzzz... when the event finished everyones outside chatting den haha grabbed this chance to stay inside office to sing and play the guitar...in the end it evolved into a mass singing session lolz.... but had fun >.<
Service today was okay....haha drummed too fast for one song but manage to bring it back so :) sian lor...after that went TCC to chat but it was quite silent.... SInce the two who makes the most noise ( ye hong and i) are both drained...so it was quite a stoning session...but nevertheless enjoyed the pumpkin soup lolz...
Hmmm anything special this week ar...Hmmmmm.... There is lar ~~~ haha but gonna keep it from u dear diary... >.<
Today was thinking about marriage.... Hmmm to me now, i think i wont get married in the future...at least thats me now...future might change i dunno... dun understand why couples are still together just because of one cert and they dont love each other...responsibility?? lame lar...on the other hand wanna get married also >.< seems more formal and wanna have something official with the one i love :)
haish forget it...since it wont be affecting me for the next 10 years...
Dear diary...see u after my life stops getting so busy

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Bleh!! Chem prelim today....paper 3 rofl... 2 hours 4 question.... screw it lol! screwed it damn badly... haha ~~ yesterday night had a high fever... was really afraid today cannot come school sia...den quickly spam panadol and wet towel...spam spam spam morning finally got better !! :) den go school and it got back to normal T.T so was like doing the chem paper and trying to focus while my head is aching like a bomb...
emo...
got loads of things to write...maybe next time...headache..

明天玩得开心一点

或许这句话对她来说只是很causal很普通的一句话。。。对我来说我可是花了好多好多的勇气才说得出来的。她不能了解我的痛。。。不明白为什么要为这种小事不开心和心痛。。。我也知道该如何对她说，她也不知道怎样安慰我。我心中的伤痕她看不到，摸不到，感觉不到。。。但对我来说可是实实在在的。。。她不知道每次当他讲这一句话的时候，而她也欣然说是的时候，我的心有多么的痛。。。她看不到，从我声音也听不出。不知道我因为这样而流了多少眼泪，唯一我知道的是肯定不少。。。那天她也应为这件事而气到哭了。。。当时我真得很感动。。心里想到的，只是如何安慰她。。。可是她没有看到我在安慰她的同时，我的内心有多么的痛。。。那天她告诉我不能安慰我她觉得有点伤心。我心里感到有点开心，始终这说明她在乎我。。。可是当晚她也说我有点烦。。。她真得这么认为的。。。她得这么一句话真得很伤我的心。。。此时此刻我的心没有一刻不在痛。。或许她在想办法入眠，还在想明天出去玩的事还是明天准备被妈妈骂。。。她会想到我吧。。期待她sms来安慰他吧。。她没有想到。。。当她跟我说可以不可以玩超过五点的时候，她不知道我的内心因为这样受多少的伤害。。。
你今天晚上享受睡眠的时候，我的心整晚都在痛，都在辛苦。。。
你明天可朋友出去玩而欢笑时，我的眼泪也不停的流着。。。
你明天因为要被妈妈唠叨而烦恼事，我的心也不停的在想着我，想安慰我。。。
明天玩得开心一点

或许我不该爱得那么深，我就越害怕失去你

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I dunno why am i blogging again...Guess im just finding a place to rant rant rant...Bleh! Im dead screwed for maths tmr... Im having a feeling im gonna screw it like how a carpenter do it to a nail... So here am i stoning in front of the comp thinking what to write with a bowl of disgustingly tasting soup in front of me... Am forced to drink it but it taste like some strange chemical... WHy put a black chicken in the soul when we haf yellow ones... My mom should know i hate black... Lolz! Just napped... Todays econs went well...should be able to pass !! Lmao the only subject im confident of since i mugged like dog for it... *barks* Guess tonight wont get to sleep again ^^ haha~~ coffee coffee coffee....Guess my gastric gonna burst again ... since its not in a good condition since i was young haha !! Heck lar...lets just screw the hell outta it for a few more months and im done... SCREW the damn A levels lar... Haha!! Scold till damn shuang !! <3

Sianz...After much struggle finally drank the chemical solution my mom gave me ( THE soup) Keep thinking that it taste like something but cannot figure out what is it...Mind block...Forget it.. Blehx.. Hahas.. Know le... It taste like almond mixed with a whole lot of organic compound... Can taste the carbons and hydrogens...

Now she gives me another plate of pear...T.T i have a never ending source of food...Dunno whether i should feel lucky or unlucky...TO think of those african children who dont even get to eat i should feel lucky...to look at my big tummy i guess its unlucky after all... T,T If this goes on how am i supposed to find a girlfriend T.T haha~~ alright joking...

Starting to get imba sian when the stress of prelims starts to come in... was getting distracted by the soup and pear hence was feeling better... Now its coming in again...Blehx~~ Happy life ^^

Haha this few days quite emo... should be over tmr if everything goes well ~~ IF !! Not that i dun trust u but i dun trust myself... That aside... DUnno why i got a sudden crush for birds and start to fall in love with birds... They are so cute ~~ Tweety tweety tweety ~~ CHirps ~~ haha ~~ sorry im going crazy ... Might wan to marry a bird to make it my wife in the future... <3 Lurve ya~~

Listening to Ronan Keating ~~ EMoing about my bird and studies... How can life get any better haha ~~ Listening to " If tomorrow never comes "

Hmmm if tmr nvr comes?? What will i do?? Its so simple... Ill spend all my money i have in my bank to buy a mickey necklace for my mom since she said she liked it last time we went to shop... Den will kiss my mom and dad goodbye and spend some time with my bird... Hmmm guess will also do some stuff i nvr used to dare to... wanted to do something crazy sometimes... Maybe swim in the singapore river haha?? but its quite dirty thou... Want to try sneaking into the swimming pool at night ( wonders if they will drain all the water) but still want to try doing so den maybe haf my last night there... Lmao so stupid and lame...